Quote by Dolly Parton

“The way I see it, if you want the

rainbow, you gotta put up with

the Rain.”

Have you ever looked at your other family members and felt out of place? Like you just didn’t belong in that family. We’ll I welcome you to my world. I have always felt different and actually acted differently than my other siblings. I just don’t know what happens to them because they also treated me differently like I was a stepchild or something until this day we don’t communicate or have much to do with one another because we had such a rough life we didn’t connect the dots. I have always been different and felt different so that being said I left home at the age of sixteen years old. Yea that’s right I felt I would be better off on my own living in the situation I had to deal with on a daily basis. I mean you don’t know me you want there so don’t judge me. I left home and join Job Corps at the age of sixteen and boy I learned a lot being on my own. I was all about education and learning new skills that would profit me in the future but after a while yea, I started missing my mom and dad and went back home and finish high school. Got a job working at the local “Seafood Restaurant”, waiting tables and taking orders. Yea, I been there and done all that. It wasn’t easy feeling like you didn’t belong in a family you were born into. I never could understand why I felt different but looking at my life compared to my other siblings I completely understand now why I felt different because I am. I’m not saying I don’t care for them but being treated like an outcast all your life will put a feeling of separation inside you. I always said I’m not gonna become another statistic case or psychological-emotional disorders type of individual. However, I have endured a lot of emotional pain from all this mistreatment and sometimes I would find myself crying all the time and feeling like I didn’t belong. Yea, that was me feeling depressed and having negative emotional thoughts but it was what I had been through growing up as a child being rejected and push to the side like a piece of trash. Seeing abuse really affected me emotionally, physically, and my health. Growing up poor and not having the resources you need to even go see a therapist for help was a problem also because I had to keep a lot of things inside without even mentioning them and boy that is a pain I can’t explain. But I eventually got to talk to a counselor and my life changed. My counselor told me a secret about what to do and I tried it for myself and found that it worked for me. I want to also share this with you so go check this out below and see if this will help you start feeling better about your emotional self.